#HotGyalMagic

I am just a g.i.r.l!

(goddess in real life) and being “normal“ has never been my thing. I don’t try to stand out- actually its usually the opposite, Im usually trying to hide My Shine, my glow, my energy, I try to hide my Love, and my Positivity, you can blame Ketu and Jupiter being in my first house, or you can blame my 4th House situation- but all in all, I am just a woman who wants a loving family, and the world is full of people who hate themselves- but what to blame you for it.

When I was living in homeless shelters, after escaping domestic violence, My family, wasn’t there for me, or my child, as a matter of fact, they DELIGHTED themselves in my “inability to get my life together”.

It was a seemingly endless cycle of abuse and violence, I leave and end up back, never able to “make it out on my own“, until I discovered the root case to this cycle- well, just like how easy it is for most women to get fucked up men multiple times to “get it together” I treated my family like that, but over the years I have come to realize the main reason I am such a outcast in my own family is because my family acts as if- since I call out toxic behaviour, and am proactive about healing myself and my child of trauma this triggers them and makes them feel inadequate. They hate the fact I am sexually attractive, and take good care of myself. They hate the fact I watch what I eat, they hate the fact have “hope“ and a (PLAN) to escape poverty, the hate the fact I am so “open“ to all kinds of things they shun, and more than anything they hate the fact I am not codependent on their approval or acceptance of me and my life.

Those divesting from their abusive families understand what it takes to finally go NO CONTACT.

This has been years in the making.

I watch with hopelessness as my spiritually messy family, pretends they are not poor and impoverished and will live and die as such- unless they wake up to the financial realities of life.

I have my fathers face, and my mother has genuinely hated me, my entire life because of it. My father was physically violent, and my mother was emotionally, and psychologically violent- still is and every single day living with her, she makes sure to terrorize me and bully me non stop.

SOMETIMES, she has moments of kindness and thoughtfulness but in truth, she has never been good at hiding her dislike for me because I remind her of my dad- who use to beat and abuse her.

I am also the only one of my 3 sisters who ISNT named after a ancestor.

The Ultimate disrespect- lucky for me, My Ancestors, have made it clear who they have chosen to give their favor to and essentially, gave me the position of The Family Wizard lol.

Cool spiritually- not so “cool“ in the muggle world unless its related to money- you could walk on water and turn blood into wine, and not one person would care because it doesn’t make them money.

No one in my family cares about their mental or physical health, or their spiritual health, and since I do, its demonized.

Trying to run a business, surrounded by people who not only don’t support or believe in you- but is ACTIVELY speaking AGAINST your manifestations in the world-is all I know of about “family“, my narcissistic bpd mother, was too busy triangluating my other two sisters against me- my entire childhood, but now that my mom is “shopping for a caregiver“ between the two of them, I realize how sickening and selfish the situation my sisters are about to be in next year and moving forward as my mothers heath issues get worse.

I knew my mother was dying 3 years ago- now they all now after she had to be rushed off to the hospital last month. The saddest part of my mother on her way out of this realm, is knowing by biggest bully is dying.

Last August (2024) My younger sister Jamillah, who called herself “destiny swapping“ with me (those that know KNOW!) decided to come visit my mother, knowing I recently “ moved back home” and I was there- (Me and my sister hate each other) I thought it was fishy- but the witchcraft unravelled and it was shown that my mom/aunts/uncles have been using witchcraft over my family for years-due to their spiritual laziness and messiness.

In one of my last Tarot Readings, I revealed that a few of my aunts have KILLED family members via Death Magick so they could receive insurance money. They did it to My Grandmother and Grandfather, and most recently one of my uncles and have been attempting to kill me (via having me “kill myself“) via occult means for “exposing them“-and to get insurance money on my body- I have never been treated like was loved or belonged and Im am not sharing this for pity- but for understanding- I know true loneliness, true isolating, true hate…. and still - I RISE.

I’m staying with a “family“ that would CELEBRATE if I died before they did.

I have had my own mother jealous and competing with me, I have had merciless beatings and verbal abuse from both of my parents.

I have been neglected and not cared for.

I know loss and grief- and still I don’t decide to out of my way to harm or upset others intentionally.

I know what its like to have a parent actively sabotaging your pathway in life hoping you never surpass them.

I know what its like to see demons within your family members and their spiritually reckless behavior, and I know what its like to sleep in the same home with someone who cant wait for you to die.

This is not a HOME.

I have never felt safe with my mother, it’s The Worlds Abuse or My Mothers Abuse.

but I have chosen The 3rd Path, The Middle Way- MY WAY.

and I want your help and support! I am becoming the best GODDESS COACH/ Spiritual Teacher BUSINESS WOMAN, I can be to serve those that benefit from what I do know and can do!

I do need to be free of this place, but I want MY CAREER to fund my independence.

My mother and sisters, all feel they are “better than me“ because they “have their life together“ on the outside- they have their own apartments, cars, and jobs they hate- and since “moving back home“ my mother has told me that, I CANNOT run my business while I’m staying with her because SHE feels like what I do is bullshit. and she tells me I am difficult to live with- because I care about myself more than she cares about herself.

So I really think it would be cool, if you supported my work and content, so I can make a living doing what I love and was destined to do! The only way she will RESPECT ME.

Granted nothing I do will ever make her show me love the way I need it, but now you know with “family“ like this, who needs enemies!?

So currently I have been getting “regular jobs“ to get money to move back out, but $7-$15 a hour isn’t going to cut it with my skill set, but all the jobs on my level require me to actually get a car and have a babysitter- and all of that costs money.

It can no longer be avoided-

So nowwwwww I have to go from Passion Project to BUSINESS and this changes the rules of engagement.