How I became a Magical Goddess

Growing up I was raised to be very devoted Christian.

Went to private school and the like. I also come from a long line of Christians and to this day, I still do enjoy a nice church service 🤣🤷🏾‍♀️But my mindset is completely different from what it was a decade ago...

I spent my early years completely devoted to Allah/God and devoted to Jesus. I "stayed in my lane" as a "good girl".
I loved reading manga and watching anime like Inuyasha, Sailor Moon and DragonBall Z. I dreamt of being a manga artist and living to Japan one day with my future husband.

I have always been very traditional when it came to romantic relationships, having a family was my greatest aspirations, wanting a reliable, yet passionate man to be married and devoted to.

My dreams in life where simple, be a artist and a loved wife.

But life had other plans...

Skipping The Childhood trauma and abuse- When I was 17 my best friend was murdered by her boyfriend and this spiritually impacted me the most because Her ghost hovered around me for weeks but I couldn't explain what was happening at the time.
And of course being Christian- I had no one to talk to about stuff like that, so I thought I was “crazy“ and needed therapy. So I just prayed and begged God to never let me be able to see spirits and ghosts etc beacuse to be honest- I had enough things to deal with=. Eventually her energy left me alone.

I wasn’t aware I had abilities as a Medium an Channel until years later.

In 2007 when the recession shifted America and the world, me and my family lost EVERYTHING.
My mom lost her job & our house and I eventually lost my faith.

I did EVERYTHING God wanted, I believed in Jesus, I followed His word! I was a honest and good woman, and I got nothing but used and abused for it, and even bullied by people who thought I was “slow“- and finally I had to choose between my Faith/Religion or MY SURVIVAL to exist in this world harmoniously.

I BELIEVED in GOD, but Religion wasn’t adding up for me.
Whenever I asked Jesus for help with Love, I would get whatever I asked, but when I asked, begged and pleaded for the abuse I was facing at home to end- sometimes my parents would “forget” to beat me but eventually the beatings and a bullying and abuse.. it only increased..

By 2007 the abuse I experienced by my family got so severe I was forced to move out on my own. I refused to continue praying and staying faithful to Jesus when he clearly didn't care about me or my life.

I remember crying to God and telling Him that I still believed in Him always but I have to see what else is out there religious wise because Jesus and fake Christians just weren't cutting it for me.

I sobbed as I prayed to Jesus for the final time and ended our relationship.
Looking back its funny lol, but at the time it was the most terrifying experience ever.

Leaving/Changing your religion is so scary , especially when your entire life and "support " system were all Christian based .
Jesus, Islam and Christianity was all I knew at that time.

But I was 17 and had ,
HAD ENOUGH.
I needed to find THE TRUTH.
I needed to find what WORKED.

Even if it meant losing my entire social network and connections.

Even if it meant being ALONE,

even if it meant being unaccepted,

finding THE TRUTH or information I needed to escape abuse and live a free life was all that mattered to me.

I remember my (ignorant) pastor talking shit about Islam during a few sermons and it irritated me-
(my dad was Muslim so through I was Christian, I also practiced Islam)

And I come to the realization that "my pastor " didn't know... what the fuck he was talking about , being a Pastor was a “hustle“ for him, like for many “retired“ pimps/sex traffickers.

so everything he ever talked shit about I dive straight into.

I spent the summer of 2007 reading about
WITCHCRAFT & ASTROLOGY because my Pastor was talking about witchcraft and Astrology.

And to my utter shock I discovered that witches..... were basically "Tree Huggers/Hippies".

My mind was completely BLOWN.
I thought witchcraft was this evil mysterious thing, you know "Forbidden Arts"

BLOOD
SACRIFICE etc.
And EVENTUALLY just that is included But not scary like how the media or your chruch wouldhave you believe.

Think the movie Pocahontas, how she communicated with Nature and Grandmother willow- THAT is the "core" of "witchcraft"....
Communication with Nature itself.

Essentially: Shamanism,

I was fascinated!

I remember in my private school studies we learned about various early Christianity beliefs like Transcendentalism ,

I remember that I totally connected with it at the time, even through I didn't even know what it was.

I read about wicca ever since. I had to keep it a secret from my mom of course. But I was always studying. I remember my summer I spent in Reedley, CA walking along the River and just basking in the Glory of Nature...of God's Creation....
I considered myself a Transcendentalist but not a "witch"
I learned about the elements of nature and strangely since that sime God has always brought witches.or other alternative religious people to me. I even started communicating with a blood relative of Aleister Crowley before I even knew who he was as a Important and Famous Magus and Occultist.

"Magic" was as magical as glitter, and sunshine through trees...just natural.... and effortless really... I just felt CONNECTED to EVERYTHING.

God was no longer just some judgemental force but this Loving presence of support of protection.
Nature...The Wild, looked after me as if I belonged more in The Wild than "at home" with my parents.

Though I studied magic for years I didn't really practice it, I was too scared and though I formally ended my religious affiliation with Islam and Christianity, I still had HEAVY mental bondage, against actually PRACTICING magic.
I mean I was taught that it was evil and to NEVER DO it! I still was scared and I still believed I would go to Hell lmfao
For years never realizing my Life was Hell already. Lmao

Lucky for me through The Secret Came out and the Law of Attraction permanently shifted my life and my mind.

Why do I need Magic when I can just use my brain to manifest?

I wasnt a perfect manifestor BUT I definitely could manifest consistently .

I loved it. So I eventually lost interest in studying magic when I could "work magic" via my psychology.

It was grand!

I was finally creating a good life for myself! I got away from my toxic family, I started college, etc I had the bf of my dreams I was finally happy and content and making progress in my life 😌

Until I got mad.

I had a roommate who dragged me into some drama and long story short we ended up in a fight and going to jail.

Me!
My bougie ass IN JAIL.
I was so enraged but I only had myself to blame because I manifested our fight.
After our argument weeks ago, I kept replaying it in my head , everyday I came home I just wanted to beat her ass.
The mental picture was so clear, when we finally did fight it played out exactly how I invisioned... I literally created my own deja vu-
With my MIND.

And through that traumatizing experience of getting arrested and being in jail with that - chick-
I knew if I manifested the situation into existence I could manifest myself out.
And I did.

But it was not easy.
Due to some fluke in management, while we were detained they kept us in THE SAME HOLDING CELL.
For HOURS I had to endure her talking the absolute most shit, just lying her ass off AND publicly disrespecting me, but instead of even focusing on her,
I SAT IN MEDITATION

FOR
HOURS

Visualizing myself out and free and with my man.
I was tuning out her repeating our fight to EVERYONE anytime a new person was thrown in our cell.

I broke my trance 2x half confronting her , but as much as I wanted to whoop her ass-
AGAIN-

I WANTED TO BE FREE EVEN MORE.


So I stayed standfast with my intentions.
What should be the first thing I eat when I get out?
How will I do my hair?
How hard will my man be fucking me when I got home?
Yumm 😋
In my head, jail or that lying psycho didn't even exist.

One of my proudest moments was when I was free to go, and she was still locked up, banging on the glass demanding to be released too.

"We came in at the same time!! Why is she out before me!?!"

Lol Because on the outside we maybe "the same" but on the INSIDE , she could NEVER.

I learned soooo much from that experience especially about manifestation. I didn't need to use "magic" when I could just use My Mind.

Later around 2013 I moved to San Francisco and manifested my highrise apartment and new job. I manifested lovers and college opportunities. Etc. Life was good, ish but roommate drama again- like my African roommate putting her bloody pads ON THE SINK BY MY TOOTHBRUSH- intentionally. So I just had to leave for my mental wellness.
Lucky for her I was 100% a Zen Buddhist and didn't even read about magic anymore, because if I had learned about Conjure and Hoodoo back then BAAAAAAABYYYY
She would have gotten them magickal hands in the WORST WAY. LOL
Anyway, shortly after that, I moved to Los Angeles to live with my best guy friend who ended up being my lover , then fiance and then my baby's father.
Unfortunately he ended was a sociopathic narcissist and definitely did his best to ultimately derail and ruin my entire life as much as possible lmao

And I got into that situation because,
Well of Magic✨

You see, before me and him got together he was secretly cheating on his girlfriend who was a Conjure woman.
She is a Christian who loves church and Jesus like everyone in The South but sprinkled some candles and Nature magic "witchcraft" and you have Witchcraft For Christians.

She hexed his ass, rightfully so tbh
BUT the bitch fucked up when SHE HEXED ME TOO.
My Buddhism was way too passive and her energy was rageful and wanted BLOOD.
Because I chilled with Magic Practice I didn't know what was happening other than hella bad luck,
UNNATURALLY BAD luck, I ended up getting connected with a ATR Priest via FB who shifted my life with 2 simple commands
1. Spiritual bath
2. Study Conjure/Hoodoo

THE FUCK IS CONJURE!?
TF IS HOODOO?!
But I got to searching and boom,
I right back into the land of magic and not just the Enchanted Forest "Wicca" magic I was into before.
Conjure and Hoodoo are the magick...The Shamanism of our enslaved ancestors.
This was AMERICAN FOLK MAGIC
BLACK MAGIC.
And not Black Magic as in "evil"
But Black Magic as in BLACK PEOPLES MAGIC.
For years I wondered why there wasn't any "black witches" or "Christian witches" or "witches of color" but they were there and they are here.
But first of all they usually DON'T want to be called no "witch". Lol

and rightfully so, being a “witch“ is a slur to My People, even though now it was been reclaimed in the same way the slur “nigga“has been.

Being One with Nature, isn’t anymore Demonic than using money to pay your bills.

I never made deals with Devils or sacrificed a innocent life, for a “power“ or ability, all of my gifts are Divinely gifted to me due to my CULTIVATION of certain lessons and spiritual initiation.

I eventually restarted my “magical practice” from my previous magical knowledge as a base and easily have been using and creating my own style of "folk magic " from what I have learned.
The hell I went through to break that hex on me and my inborn child WAS A LOT.
BUT it was all fated events.
I had to use MY MAGIC
I had to BELIEVE in Magic, when I had NOTHING AND NO ONE TO HELP ME at my lowest point in life.
I escaped domestic violence and survived parental alienation from my ex kidnapping our child for 15 months.

God,of course- got me through it
But so did GODDESS.
So did The Planets,
So did MY MAGIC
So did Ganesha, and Lakshmi, and Oshun, and Yemaya and Kali Ma!
EVEN JESUS!
ALL OF EM lol

I have overcome so much - unnecessary hardship-
off character development, mental development and MAGICAL DEVELOPMENT.

And though I "believed in magic " for years I didn't
REALLY BELIEVE IN IT FORREAL until the day I got my daughter back.

God(dess has shown me that there is sooooo much more out here in this world than we know or are even willing to accept is real.

But one thing I have accepted and learned is... if magic is real, like
Really REALLY REAL....
Anything is LITERALLY possible.

I and KNOW this because I lived it and I live it daily.

My powers continue to grow as do my psychic abilities, and I feel more connected to The Divine and Source/GOd/Universe than ever before, Miracles and Magic IS REAL.....do you know what that can mean in your life!?!

Anything is possible, but knowing this now...
I look at my life and just stare out in awe at all the possibilities.... because the thing that makes me the MOST HAPPY is being in The God's Presence.

Honoring. Praising, just being GRATEFUL....I love to just... do that...
Prayer, ritual, magic, communicating to Spirit and Frequencies of The Universe bring me ultimate bliss
and that is simply why me and my business is here today.

When I first started selling my services as a Spiritual Advisor I had it under the name Devability.
My name is Deva , it means God/Shining One And Ability means- Skill or Talent.
Devability is the Skill/Talent of a God.
Or a reflection of a God (which we ALL are)

Devability- Lifestyle, Beauty and Spirit IS about this magickal LIFESTYLE that gratitude, love, bliss and wholeness can come whenever you want it to- at least if you do the work.
Later I changed my Business name to

The Sea Witch of San Francisco-

to reclaim the stigma of the term “witch“ to educate, but I underestimated the generations of sexist hatred that has been programed into so many people’s lives. Since the renaming I had to rename it again after the blatant and casual disrespect, bullying and mistreatment for reclaiming the term “witch“.

I settled on The Venusian Oracle, because it sums up my intentions without triggering folks into instantly trying to invalidate my existence as a “magical girl“ who isn’t “evil“.

According to most man made religions- the female WOMAN- is “demonic“ and a “evil witch“ because She has access to special abilities or powers, or what the ancients called Siddhis.

Being conscious of what I can do, doesn’t inherently make me “evil“- but I guess to a babyfucker, stopping them from fucking/eating children makes me “evil“-

to a cheater, them getting caught is “evil“

to a Vampire/Narcissist being forced to take ACCOUNTABILITY for their actions-makes people like me

“Evil“.

Lucky for me though, I do not care what those kinds of people think because they arent the best judges of GOOD to begin with.

I love God and God and The Other Gods- love me!

What others feel about MY RELATIONSHIP with The Divine is irrelevant.
I have accepted my "weirdness"
I have accepted my Gifts, Talents and abilities and I am finally ready to share myself with the world to help Others be empowered to stand in THEIR TRUTHS.

I just wanted to be a humble wife and manga artist , I never "wanted" to be a Psychic or have Intuitive abilities, lol I would have NEVAAAAA imagined being apart of this life...but Thats why I am here, this is my purpose in life, and as much as I am a "fuck up" in other areas of life THIS IS WHAT I AM GREAT AT...
Assisting Those of us Chosen for this walk.
I am here to EMPOWER
I am here to get you to believe
IN YOUR OWN MAGIC
Or at least the magic of their own mind.
We all deserve to live our best lives we don't have to keep accepting FEAR as truth when....its the ultimate LIE blocking all the blessings and goodness we are meant to be experiencing!

I'm more of a Alchemist than a "Witch" but what I do is NOT “witchcraft“- its interdimensional Alchemy , you can call it Prayer, Magic, Manifestation or whatever you want-

I just know it works!

I am more focused on personal development- ALCHEMY / Psycho-cybernetics than The Occult per se, but I know how to use my abilities if and when necessary.

I don't do evil or malicious things to others because through I am not a Christian by any means, I still have Christian-Like VALUES, and Buddhist Principles I live by. I am still living friendly and optimistic and as long as no one crosses me, then I never need to use my gifts for malicious things, however I am a Taoist at heart and I accept the "duality" of existence. I am both My Light and My Shadow and I don't shame any aspect of myself.
"Good" or "Bad"
But let's keep it cute shall we?
☯️


Thank you for reading.

I am the way I am becausee of my experiences and overcoming them. I believe if ME if all people have overcome what I have, THEN SO CAN YOU! God led me down this path, to heal myself and my family and I am in the position to help others do the same.

If you would like to book a Divination with me check out my booking link ,Stay Encouraged!