Thank You, NEXT!!
Thank U, Next- Ariana Grande
“She taught me love
She taught me patience
How she handles pain
That shit's amazing
I've loved and I've lost
But that's not what I see
'Cause look what I've found
Ain't no need for searching,
and for that, I say
Thank you, next ..”
I am really grateful for all the pain I have endured the past 2 years in particular, especially ,but honestly my early life, has been nothing but disappointment after disappointment the past 10 years. A Decade of fucking misery lol Well a Decade of some really hard lessons. Ruthless and relentless lessons. Lessons I wouldn’t wish on anyone, but then again maybe the world would be a nicer place if people went through all the torture and abuse they put on others…but I digress, my point is that in the end, I am grateful for all of these disappointments and heartbreaks and even the abuse I have survived.
First and foremost I want to thank my Birth Family. Thank you both for never loving me the way I really needed or even wanted. Thank you constantly comparing me and my sister and ruining me and her relationship beyond repair. Thank you for being Codependent and Narcissistic ,so later when I had to face my own codependent/narcissistic issues, I was able to quickly learn those lessons and heal, Now I can smell any codependent/narcissistic person from a mile away. My eyes have been open and I will now never be blind again.
Thank you for being toxic and abusive, because I was forced to love myself the way I needed to be loved. I was forced to become the parents I deserved. Through all of your shortcomings, I was forced to be strong, independent, creative, loving, compassionate, and tolerant of people who are so hurt, bitter and angry that all they can do is hurt others and be rude. Thank you for showing me what not to do and thank you for showing me how important and necessary H E A L I N G , S E L F L O V E , and E M O T I O N A L M A S T E R Y are.
As an adult I realize, you two were just two people whose paths had to cross to create me.
my birth Dad was too hot and birth Mom was too cold.
However My Spirit Father/ The Sun taught me to not be so hot I burn the Life I create.
My Spirit Mother/ The Moon taught me that its ok to be soft and feminine and emotional- but to not get carried away emotionally. To let it Flow to let it go ! Sometimes its okay to cause big waves every now and again so people respect you and to eclipse people from your life, with or without warning.
I am grateful for the life I have finally, at 28 years old, I have finally accepted my life, my role, and my destiny. Now I can move forward and put all this pain and heartbreak to help others.
Thank you both so much, for teaching me that I REALLY don’t N E E D another person to love me and that I am able to be 100% capable of believing and loving myself with or without outside support.
All I need is Me and G.U.S (God Universe Source)
Thank you for giving me this body, Thank you for this DNA. I have a heart of gold and blood of diamonds and steel.
Everyone else Thank you. Especially Tynell, Thank you for completely ruining my entire life, It made me realize I can rebuild it better, without you, and the other jealous people in my life, this time around. Thank you for Pharaoh, You DNA donation was the only true purpose for you to exist, so now that it’s done, I look forward to you embracing Your next phase in life- or should I say DEATH-
being a DEADBEAT father, the point is to actually be DEAD. So Rest in Pieces.
Thank You all for all the pain… the betrayal, the abuse, the rape, the fear, the lies, The slander, the lies, the plotting and the scheming, the gossip…
Thank You, Truly,
Because if it were not for you rendering me powerless, disappointing me and ruining my life completely
I wouldn’t have realized what the most powerful thing of all is
My Will and my ability to NEVER BE BROKEN . And now that I know this I can channel my energies into helping others who have suffered as badly or worse than I have, and we all can turn all this pain and trauma into something useful, magical, healing and powerful.
So .. thank you so much, from the bottom of my heart, for destroying me in every way possible,
For burning me into ashes,
Because through my Death, I realized I can be reborn likea Pheonix…even if I don’t want to be.
through these deaths, I realize I cannot be killed, I cannot be broken, and I cannot be powerless- especially when I AM THE POWER.
I wish nothing for you all but that you get get everything you deserve in life.
Today I wash off the rest of these pains and hurts, because you all have hurt me so deeply and broke my heart in so many ways the pain has become unbearable anymore so I have to wash it all away, and let it all go…
these pains cannot come with me.
Thank you for you role, and participation,
Thank You- Because of you and your wickedness and cruelty… you have made me a GOD, and you have made me completely unstoppable and invincible. So as upset as part of me wants to me, I have all of these cool new SuperPowers, because I was able to survive and thrive everything you put me through.
It’s funny, you all came for me to destroy me, and all you did was destroy all the basic bitch aspects of me, if you were jealous and envious before, I can’t wait to see the looks on your faces when you witness my God Form.
May you experience everything you deserve in life. Swiftly.
Thank you.
*And CUT!! Great job everybody!! Great job!*
N E X T !!!